saavedra77: I've had worse! Only a flesh wound! (fleshwound)
2014-12-18 10:30 pm

Worried, Tonight

... what happens to an epileptic trainwreck like me (or I feel like I am) if it gets to the point where I can't afford rent or prescriptions. I'm intermittently anxious, depressed, experiencing daily petit mals. It's taking me too long to find a new job after the last contract and I'm burning through my resources. The available assistance seems scant, at this point.
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2010-08-29 02:49 pm

The Titanic

The unconscious mind will take you to some obscure and bewildering places when you're not looking.

For example, this morning's sleepy itinerary followed the nagging sense that I'd forgotten something through college, an ex girlfriend's apartment, and prison.


Did I say "obscure and bewildering"?

If you like anvils )
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2010-08-28 03:07 pm
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Eight Months in One Hudred Words or Less

You could say that I haven't had the best kind of year. That kind of understatement is always diverting.

I'll try to sum up the main points:

Changes in my health status and job collided messily during the first six months of this year. My employer and I tried to come to an accommodation. It didn't work. I didn't feel like I could take another day of it and quit with my doctor's blessing. I am now engaged in a full-time investigation of other, more suitable endeavors.

That last part's not easy, but pretty excellent, actually.
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2010-08-16 05:14 pm

We Can Rebuild It

I've been reviewing the whole run of "Nothing Like the Sun"/"Kingdom of the Wicked" over the past few weeks, thinking about some problems & possible fixes:

house cleaning )
saavedra77: Back to the byte mines ... (us)
2010-08-11 10:06 pm
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"Brave New World - The Movie!"

A dark science fiction drama: "A world divided. A society consumed by drugs. And one outsider who dares to make a difference. Brave. New. World!" Coming soon to theaters in 3D & Digital Surround Sound. You'll feel like you're there! Video game in stores December first. Multiplayer online role-playing game scheduled for release in January.


What If We Really Like Digital Surround Sound and Cheap Pharmaceuticals? )
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2010-07-11 09:19 pm
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Ocean City: The Week of July 4th, 2010

More for my own personal amusement than anything else, the following is a travelogue of a trip I took to Ocean City, NJ (near Atlantic City) to see family during the week of July 4th, 2010:

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saavedra77: Sneakers and shadow in the rain (Sneaks shadow rain)
2010-05-22 02:00 pm
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Fuck you, Walt

For the first few years after I moved to Seattle in the early 2000s, one of the fixtures of my neighborhood was a senior pothead who liked to be called--I am absolutely not kidding--"Griz"; not "Grizzly," definitely not "Gordon." Just the one syllable. Griz posed as master dropout, claimed to have had no permanent address from his teens to his fifties. "Of no fixed abode" he'd say self-consciously, drawing out and having fun with the cliché. Griz seemed as incapable of a bad mood as he was of working, obligations, or lasting relationships, or saying anything that you could completely believe.

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saavedra77: Al Swearingen from Deadwood says "I'm in fuckin' wonderment." (wonderment)
2010-05-15 11:21 pm
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Thinking About William Kennedy, Billy Phelan

I've always been impressed by the ease with which William Kennedy's prose moves from persuasively colloquial and naturalistic dialogue to poetic cadence. His ear for period argot is pitch-perfect, but the narrative frame belongs to a completely different--although complimentary--register. Kennedy's voice openly comments on character, moment, and action, conveying an ironic affection for spiritual outlaws: gamblers, gangsters, drunks, derelicts, and machine politicians. His attitude toward the past (and the past is what Kennedy is all about, but with a sense of humor and direction that, say, Faulkner altogether lacked) is appreciative, not nostalgic, but his sympathy for old Albany's devils, rakes, and dropouts is undeniable.

More where that came from, pal )
saavedra77: Sopranos' Chris Moltisanti whispers secrets to Silvio Dante. (Secrets The Sopranos)
2010-04-13 07:03 pm
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A cryptic remark may be made out of discretion, nodding slyly to a shared secret; or posed as a riddle that the speaker dares you to unravel. A very private person may be elliptical to test the waters, socially; a certain kind of attention-seeker may seek to cultivate an air of mystery. Opaque language may be used to... gesture toward the inexpressible ... Or just to fuck with you. ;)
saavedra77: Forget Me Not (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Fo)
2010-04-07 10:05 pm
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This Is Where We Used To Live

Cleaning house a few weeks ago, I stumbled on a box full of pictures from the 1990s. Pulling the first couple out of the box, the sight of them was literally dizzying: they were packaged in little envelopes with the logo of a photo developer, the images were washed out, there were brown negatives behind them in the envelope.  Pre-digital.  Pre-digital. And, it started to dawn on me, predating almost everything that I’m taking for granted as I sit here typing.

More than the antediluvian format or the dust, the realization of difference, distance shocked, couldn’t be assimilated–as if the digital and online facts of my present life had been identical in 1990.  A part of me recoiled from the realization that this was even the past.  The people I was connected to, the clubs we went to, the books and films we were talking about, the local politics.  But everything in those photos was ten-to-twenty years ago, when pictures were taken on film and life online mostly just meant email.

And I lived in the Bates Motel.

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saavedra77: Fits (Fits)
2010-03-16 12:05 am
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Can't Believe I Did That, But ...

First, let me apologize for not updating everyone on the results of my November hospitalization. I know, I know, it's been months, and those of you who don't follow me on Facebook might have been unnecessarily worried by my silence.

First of all, I got through the hospitalization alright. Mind you, I endured the humiliation of being nearly naked all week with electrodes in my hair, wires tethering me to the wall. And I was there deliberately courting the most awful kind of experience I've ever had. In the end, however, we got the information we needed without too much of that electrocuted feeling that always comes with seizures, and without my pulling any muscles or biting my tongue.

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saavedra77: Doc from Deadwood has a dark turn of mind .. (dark)
2009-09-26 09:23 pm
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The Last Word in Southern Gothic

I recently finished re-reading Faulkner's Absalom! Absalom!, which turned out to be as powerfully immersive an experience as my first reading of the novel, over twenty years ago:

How Sophoclean It All Was )
saavedra77: Doc from Deadwood has a dark turn of mind .. (dark)
2009-07-19 10:14 am
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Faulkner's Outsiders

A conversation with a co-worker prompted me to start re-reading Faulkner's Light in August a couple of weeks ago, a novel I had first attempted (and rapidly given up on) before college.

Light in August is reputedly one of Faulkner's more accessible novels--and an important one. Less formally experimental than The Sound and Fury, As I Lay Dying, or Absalom, Absalom!, the book nonetheless wrestles with equally weighty themes: the legacies of racial and religious communalism and bigotry in the early twentieth-century American Southeast. Jim Crow, John Calvin, and Joe Christmas )
saavedra77: Back to the byte mines ... (us)
2009-05-19 10:05 am

One Minute To Midnight

Michael Dobbs' re-examination of the Cuban missile crisis gets beyond the mythology surrounding Kennedy and Krushchev's 1962 confrontation. chaos diplomacy )
saavedra77: On HBO's Rome, Posca knows that pride goeth before a fall. (Pride Fall Rome)
2009-04-19 03:56 pm
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Raison d'etre

The libertarian habit of seeming to claim a monopoly on "reason" or "rationality" can be irritating. But one supposes that heightened self-confidence represents a sort of prerequisite for playing on that team ...
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2009-03-19 09:50 am
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The Hemingses of Monticello: Family, Race, & Caste in Jefferson's Virginia

Interracial sex presented a problem for the slave holding South: above all because it resulted in mixed-race people. what's a racial caste system to do? )
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2009-03-14 06:30 pm


  • 12:58 Brunch: Couple @ next table arguing re palatability of pork #
  • 13:02 He: pork "objectively" better than chkn, bf. #
  • 13:04 She: "have 2 disagree." #
  • 13:09 Me 2 her (when he steps out 4 cig): my sympathies. #
  • 13:11 Her (laughing): seems 2 mean a lot 2 him. #
  • 13:13 Me: Evidently. #
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2009-02-27 07:30 pm


  • 04:19 Got up freakishly early (stress). #
  • 05:30 Up, ready, may as well go 2 work. #
  • 05:34 Sleepless in ... Gah! #
  • 05:38 Eerily quiet, few lights, lil traffic, no other pedestrians #
  • 06:22 Brkfst @ taco truck ... Different. #
  • 15:27 Leaving work "early" 9.5 hrs later ... #
  • 17:13 Called my fav niece, caught up on diaz gossip. #
  • 18:36 Hon-bau ... Mmm ... #
  • 18:59 Friday night excitement: me, book, bed. #
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2009-02-16 09:42 am
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Senate Moderates: Gatekeepers, Power Brokers

Ironically, despite dramatic Republican defeats in two consecutive Congressional elections, the party's loss of the White House, and its current minority status both in and out of government, a trio of Republican senators have emerged as the 111th Congress' key power brokers: Susan Collins, Olympia Snowe, and Arlen Specter. For the foreseeable future, the fortunes of both the Obama Administration and Congress' Democratic majority are going to be tied to their ability to woo members of this troika.

Polarization, the Filibuster, and the Power of the Swing Vote )

Happily, last fall's election ceded the Obama Administration and Congressional Democrats the initiative, empowering them to shape the agenda for the U.S. government for the coming years. But three Republican senators will serve as gatekeepers, checking Democratic initiatives and defining the limits of what they can do--at least until the 2010 Congressional elections, at which point that balance of power may shift, again (if, for example, retiring Sen. Judd Gregg's seat is claimed by a Democrat). Of course, there's no guarantee that it will, or that the shift will be in Democrats' favor.

So for every really significant change the Administration seeks, the question becomes, which Republican senator can be persuaded to defect and support it? And which parts of Obama's legislative agenda will get past the Senate's new gatekeepers--i.e., Collins, Snowe, and Specter? In civil rights, energy/the environment, health care policy, national security, etc?
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2009-02-15 07:20 pm


  • 18:14 Listening 2 social distortion @ cafe mecca. #

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