After thirteen hours in transit, entailing the usual round of delays and security hassles, I arrived at Philadelphia International Airport just before midnight that Saturday, dog-tired, with another two hours to go before I would be able to put my head to a pillow. Heaving my one checked bag from the luggage carousel, I slogged out of the air conditioned terminal into the twenty-four-hour outdoor sauna of a Deleware Valley August. The temperature was eighty degrees in the middle of the night, without even a hint of a breeze, the air heavy, immersive. My body took awhile to adjust, but the feeling was distantly familiar, not altogether unwelcome.
Forty tedious minutes later, I was behind the wheel of a car for the first time in a year and a half, following unfamiliar MapQuest directions deep into the South Jersey suburbs, from interstate to state highway to a succession of half-remembered lesser roads. Equally depressing strip malls, dimly-lit subdivisions, opaque summer fields slid by. I pulled up outside my Carmen's place at about 2:00 A.M. There were no stars, no streetlights, just one bulb in the yard, casting its yellowy circle of light against my sister's white McMansion, making me think of the foreground of Magritte’s “Empire of Light.”
Anticipating my late arrival, Carmen had left a key under the doormat for me. I slipped off my shoes and crept inside as quietly as I could manage, depositing my luggage in the upstairs guest room. Before succumbing to unconsciousness, I left Carmen a note on the kitchen counter, warning that I might sleep in a little. At around 2:30, I fell gratefully into the guest bed, pulling the sheets over my head.
I woke at around 10:00 AM, not nearly late enough, and sank down the stairs to find Carmen and my brother-in-law Gil sitting in the kitchen, having coffee. Carmen and I exchanged groggy hugs, Gil and I shook hands. I responded to polite questions about how my trip went.
And then we got down to talking about what we would be doing for the next two days.
We were going to bury my mom. And we were going to navigate the awkward reunion two groups of people who had neither seen nor wanted to see one another in over thirty years.
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